Well, it's about time!!!

Wow, so it has finally happened!  Yesterday was my weigh in for week 30, and I weighed in at 178.6!  

I finally hit the 170's!!!  I almost cried.  It's been SO LONG since I have seen that number.  I am fitting into size medium shirts more now, most of the ones I buy are that size.  My size 12's are getting looser.  I just got some J. Brand legging jeans in a size 12, and the waist *almost* fits, but the legs are a bit tight.  They are definitely something to work towards.  I bought size 10's because I wasn't sure how they run, but I think I'm returning those.  I don't think there is ANY way I would fit into those by London.  I think the 12's are my best option.  If anything, I can always take in the waist if needed.  But they make my butt look good!

I can't wait to hit 160.  Then I can start running again :)  I am looking to hitting that number at some point in July.  We'll see.  My doctor wants me to aim for 130, because he thinks that is my optimum weight for my height.  But I just don't think that is feasible.  Right now, I am saying I will be happy anywhere from 130-140 and maintaining that.

Anyway, I am aiming for 175 for Saturday.  Definitely possible, since I weighed 177.4 this morning.  

So close to a new set of numbers!

Yup, so close that I can taste it!  I'm at 180, and am desperate to hit the 170's.  I'm hoping to hit it this Friday, when I weigh in.  At night I have been weighing in at 181.2, and in the morning, at 180.2.  So we shall see.  

I have been tracking calories and points.  Exercising.  I need to step it up, because I feel like I'm in a rut.  I am going to start walking outside in addition to my cardio on the bike.  Once I hit 160, I am going back to running.  I LOVE running.  But I need to be strong, so I don't mess up my ankle again.

I went shopping a week ago, and the size 12's are getting looser.  I bought some size M tops, which I haven't done in a loooong time.  Granted, they are loose fitting so they need to be sized down, but still.  I bought a size 10 pair of casual capris at Ann Taylor loft, and while they are tight, they are not too far off.

I also whipped out this dress I had from years ago, that I remember buying off the clearance rack at Lord and Taylor.  This super cute dress that I plan on wearing when I have "Tea" in London.  It's a size 10.  It actually ZIPS!  WOW!  It's a very small dress, if you look at it on the hanger.

It freaks me out.  When I was 148, I was a size 10.  When I hit 141, I was a size 8.  When I used to be in the 130's, I was still a size 8.  How in the world am I getting close to a 10 already, and I weigh so much????  Are clothing brands crazy different then they were (but that really wouldn't explain the L&T dress), or is it the exercising/toning?  What size will I be/what will I look like at 135-140 now?  It's kind of exciting AND scary.

Anyway...I won't complain anymore.  I'm very happy to see new sizes.  :)  

Getting back on track!

So..  I've still been logging and counting and exercising, but i feel like it's been half assed.  After three weeks of not losing any weight, I'm back on track.  We still have Easter food, but I've been counting it and exercised so it was burned off.  My period is almost over, so looking forward to the scale this week.  Can't wait to see the 170s.  My goal for the end of the school year is to be 160.  We will see!  I can do it if i keep accountable.

Yay for exercise!

I am currently on the bike right now after a long day.  Hopping on it after work is a routine now, really.  This is my seventh time this week.  Yes that's right.. A full week of cardio!  I go for 35 minutes and also increased my resistance. 

Weigh in is in the am.  I was 188 last week.  Crossing my fingers to hit 185 this week.  I saw 186 a few days ago, so it could be possible. 

I have been eating pretty well points/calorie wise, but the quality could be better.  But it's a learning process! 

Still here!

So last week i did not blog at all but i lost, if i remember right, 1.2lbs.  This week i lost 1.4lbs, but have yet to vlog about it.  I plan on recording tomorrow morning.

Things have been super difficult.  my mom has been diagnosed with multiple myeloma, which is an incurable cancer.  Lots of crying in the dark at night in secret, to stay strong for her.  Lots of praying, bargaining, anger...and that is just me.  She had been doing plenty of it on her own. 

I'm scared of what will happen. She is on meds, including chemo, to get it in remission.  But I'm staying strong for her.  And its given me reason and determination to get healthy.  I didn't hit my goal of 5x bike last week (only did two days), but starting this week off strong.  My weight loss week starts on Fridays, and I've gone on the bike yesterday and today.  30 minutes yesterday, 20 today. 

I've only eaten about 1100 calories today and burned 200-300 on the bike, but I'm not hungry.  I know its because of what has been going on, but i won't force myself.

Anyway, i am determined to hit the 180's this Friday. 

Having a super hard time

Dealing with a LOT of family issues.  I've been doing super bad in terms of eating.  I don't even want to weigh in on Friday :(   

Been feeling super down and it's affecting my eating.  I guess wee will see..

So nervous for tomorrow

So my weigh I'm is in about 12 hours.  I just finished with dessert (an apple, even though we have cookies and homemade mocha Flan in the house - go me!).  I want to give myself lots of time to digest and process this food.

But i am sooooo nervous, because i used all my extra weekly points this week.  All.of.them.  Can't stress that enough.  So that freaks me out.  Besides which, yesterday we had company over.  I ate way more than planned.  Meat that i eyeballed for ounces, two baby potatoes, bread, olives, salad, and Flan.  I could cry!  I should have just said no to all the food .  I think it's really going to impact my weight tomorrow. 

Things have been very stressful lately, which i will go into detail on my vlog tomorrow.  But i alternate with wanting to eat everything, and having no appetite.  It's just to cope with the stress, and I'm aware of it.  I'm glad i at least recognize it.

Today i did so much better...  I had oatmeal for breakfast, prosciutto and Muenster cheese on a pita for lunch with 1 serving of chips, strawberries for a snack, 5 ounces of rib eye and a quarter cup of corn for dinner, and my apple for dessert.  I stayed within my points, and used my last two extra weekly points. 

I am going to keep my fingers and toes crossed for tomorrow!